You broke my heart.

Do you know how many times I told myself that I need to be stronger? I’ve been putting smile on my face though deep within me all I wanna do is breakdown and cry.

I keep on telling myself that I’m fine though deep inside me, I know I am not.

If you only knew how I wanted to be with you all this time.

If you only knew how hard it is for me to get over you.

If you only knew how many times I’d cried. If you only knew how I stalk your profile just to check if you found somebody new.

It breaks my heart a little bit more each day.

Do you know that I always listen to music that could hopefully heal my heart and to make me stronger?

I pretend to be fine when I’m not.

Do you have any idea how you made me feel all this pain and hurt?

Each and every day of my life carrying these feelings makes me feel sad.

If you only knew what I’ve been thinking, what I am feeling everytime I remember you, you’d cry… you’d cry more than I do. Because it will be impossible for you not to feel it too. because the pain is so intense. It burns. It cuts to the core.

And to think that I have to deal with this pain everyday. That I have to pretend that I don’t have it inside me when in reality it crawls within me, making me want to cry and scream and to beg for you to please ease my pain.

yes, I have this pain everyday.