You are beautiful

You are beautiful.

You're oblivious to it but people around you are so much aware

how magnificent you are.

There's just no one can ignore your existence.

Especially me. Every piece of you matters to me.

I keep on thinking, how can anyone be as beautiful as you?

Are you even real?

Are you even human?

Or an angel for me to see what unearthly beauty means?

You dazzle me by your smile.

You take my breath away if you started talking.

and your look, whenever you look at me, it doesnt feel right,

it's like i was hit by a lightning. I cant move. I cant think.

All I can see is your eyes.

Your eyes that speak the inside of you.

it tells me that you are a beautiful soul.

a beautiful dream that can make me leave this chaotic place

and put me into a calm and sweet surrender.

You are beautiful.

as hypnotic as the stars in the sky.

You are beautiful.

calmly beautiful like the blue water in the ocean.

You are beautiful.

like a baby that sleeps in his mother's embrace.

You are beautiful.

like a raindrops in the dessert.

You are beautiful and I have a thousand more

reasons why i found you beautiful

but the finest reason I can give you is...

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.

Bare Me

Today i decided i don't want to be strong for a while.

I'm letting my guard down just for now.

I am letting all my tears flow.

I am letting it fall. Shamelessly. Proudly.

Today, the shouting that I'm making inside, I'm letting it all out.

as loud as it can, as bold as it is.

Today, I am weak. 

People can tore me all they want.

People can hurt me until they hurt themselves in the process of hurting me.

People can crush me until they cant stand no more.

because today, I am bare.

I am me.

Just me.

Plain me.

Nothing more.

Nothing Less.

unloved

You smiled.

and that was the most breathtakingly smile i have ever seen.

so i smiled back at you, shyly.

and then a tears fell from your eyes.

the most expressive eyes I know.

and I was hurt. I bled inside.

It hurts so much seeing you hurting.

But I can do nothing about it.

Because it was me.

I hurt you.

I hurt you more than anyone can do.

Because you love me.

and that is what I cant give you.

MY HEART

I never had you

In the process of loving you, 

I lost everything.

You took everything of me.

Every piece of me.

Piece by piece everyday.

Until nothing is left.

Until I became empty.

Until me became you.

but the sad thing is...

i never had even a piece of you.

Blogger's block

cant think of anything to write...

it really is hard to write isnt it?

no matter how long you are practicing it... it's still hard to it so...

my heart is filled with so much emotion but my fingers couldn't type the right letters and put it into words so i can create a new blog. ggrrrssshhhh blogger's block? is there such a thing? nah!

i'll come back later... and hopefully, got something to post :)

ciao!

UNCERTAINTY.

is what scares me most.

I m hurting.
Because of what i've read, Im hurting.

Im hurting 'cause I know I am not that girl, Im hurting.

Im hurting... because I miss you.
and missing you hurts so much...

Why does it have to be me that's always hurting?
why does it have to be me? :(