When I read all the things written in here, I was totally surprised to see that almost everything in here is about you.

What I feel for you.

And I figured it isn’t right. It’s not right to love someone this much when it is clear from the very start that there's no possibility for us.

So I’m gonna stop now.

And this time I hope it’s for real.

For my sake I hope to mean it.

because I’m afraid that if I don’t stop now I’m gonna lose myself.

The entire me would be all about you.

If I continue loving you this much, the little love that I still have for myself will soon be vanished.

So goodbye now my love.

You will always be in my heart, but will be kept in the deepest and the most secret part that even I won’t be able to notice .

Please understand that I need to do it.

For my sake.

For your sake.




for the last time, I Love You. deeply.

I never thought that today would end up totally not fine.

I don’t know why it was suddenly ruined.

Today was your day and I know you were totally happy,

But a thought of you really happy without me anything to do with it just made me sad.

I’m selfish I know, and I’m sorry.

And I cried so much. 

Again. 

After weeks of pretending tough,

I cried again.

And I prayed. 

I prayed to God to please take away all the love that I have for you.

Because it hurts. 

A lot. 
It burns.

Which is hard because until now I'm not used of this pain.

I didn't pray for you to love me back because 
I do not want to be unfair to you and it just doesn't feel right 
so I prayed to be free from this unrequited love instead.
But a thought of me not loving you anymore hurts as well. 
It’s as if without this feeling,
 there will be a hole inside me. 
But its better I guess, 
having an empty spot inside me is better 
than live with this pain that kills me everyday.

andIloveyoustill.