Because of that news, I cried so much last night. so much that it makes my eyes so sore and makes my breathing abnormal and unstable. I hate you! No. you know I can’t hate you for long. So I’m  gonna write I hate me instead. It’s my fault that I am still hurting at the moment. I could've gotten over you a long time ago but I didn't do it. I was too stupid to think that there'll come a day you'll learn to like me. And now I’m in agony and struggling everyday to live.

If I could beg you not to go with her, I would. That’s how pathetic I am. I love you that much, that even if I have to choose between hurting myself everyday or live a normal life without you, I would choose the first one. Argh I totally suck!