If there was a way to escape this pain, i'd definitely take it. 'cause it's killing me.
But what's killing me more is how I'm addicted to this pain. I'm willing to take more of it just so I can continue wanting you.. Even if its one-way kind of wanting.
The "me-wanting-you-but-you-dont" kind of wanting.

it sucks i know.

i hate that im a collection of paradoxes.