Goodbye to you

somehow it made me sad.

talking to you now, doesn't interest me anymore. AT ALL.

it made me sad cause i adore you.

i really do.

but now that the feeling is gone i think, 

you're the one to be blamed for letting me go just like that.

i still like you y'know, but not the way that i used to.

Facts About Me

3. I'm a crybaby

No one actually knows about me being a crybaby. when I say no one,
I mean no one.
People see me as strong and tough. but im not.
When you want to annoy or irritate me, all you have to do is try.

I may not seem affected at all, I may laugh at your ugly face,
but believe me, I'm crying and cursing inside.
a single word can hurt me. you can crush me inside without even trying.

but no, I wont let anyone see it.

4. I'm a good pretender.

im not used of letting people know how i feel inside.
I build a wall around me, a safe zone.
so i can prevent people of hurting me using my emotion.
experiences thought me that no matter how much people tell you they love you,
at the end of the day, they will hurt you, no matter how.

so i perfected the art of pretense.
rule: do not let anyone see how you really feel.

when you're really happy, pretend you're not.
when you're sad, pretend you're not.

that way. you're safe. but alone. yes that's sad, but its better than be hurt because you let someone in right?

Facts about me:

2. I'm one of the smartest but definitely the laziest student at school :D

Facts About me: 


1. MUSIC

I'm a music junkie. I have a great affection for music. It's an outlet of ones emotion when happy and in love.
it's a way of showing gratitude. a way to show the sincerest emotion.
it is also for me is a cure. a cure for pain, loneliness, unrequitted love, and all.

And when im feeling blue and all, i just take my earphone and blast im feeling good as the music fills inside of me.

last night while lying in my old comfortable pillow i decided I want to blog all about me.
Narcissist as ever huh.
Nah, I just want to list down facts about me, so when someone ask me
"Who are you really?" i'll just answer "go check my blogspot, silly!"

also, since i think i'm developing an alzheimer's its a good way to list it all so when i totally forget it all
i'll just go back to this page to remind me of my old self (that is if i still remember my own email add)

i dont know if what im doing is right...
maybe it is, maybe it's not.
i dont want to think about it for awhile...
it's better for now to just go with the flow,
whatever will be, will be right?

for the time being i think i'll just stick to it.
I'll do it not to harm anyone, but to protect myself,
to protect my heart from focusing on one thing,
and be broken again.

Poppers

I miss you Pops!

i miss him so much! 

>>>0<<<<

yeah that much!

i never thought i would :(

pag bumalik ka rito di na kita pauuwiin.

im gonna adopt you kiddo! haha

argh, im so selfish!

Nerds comforts me :)

thank you for bringing sweetness in my mouth, down to my throat...

somehow it sprinkles some sweetness in my bitter heart :)

Im doing fine. im okey.

i talk. i laugh. i function.

but everytime you cross my mind, 

a thought of you makes me wanna breakdown and cry.

Wonderful pretense

im trying my hardest.

pretending really hard to laugh, 

to be happy.

but hey, you just broke my heart. and what im doing is hard. really hard.

i'm bleeding inside while people wonder why am i wearing a big smile.

why i laugh as if everything is hilariously funny.

oh yeah. no matter how broken i am, i can still do a wonderful charade.

i'll pick up the pieces of me without letting people you know how shattered i am.

It hurts damn much!