Pero no sé por qué tengo que llorar, sólo porque usted dijo adiós.

I read this from your twitter. and suddenly i got jealous of her. 

Of how she affects you so much. 

Of how she's able to hurt you and make you vulnerable.

It’s not that I’m happy that you are hurting. 

In fact it saddens me to learn that while all I want is for you to be happy, you are not, 

because she thinks that you are not good enough for her.

Which I think is not fair. 

Everything is not fair. 

How could she not see how wonderful a person you are?

How could she dump the person that I love so much? 

And how dare you love her when she doesn’t

even love you an inch of what I feel for you? 

Yes, you may be hurting too, but not as I much as I do.

I don't know how to describe what I feel for you.

And it scares me... 

Because I know you are far better than I will ever be. I will never be good enough for you.

your beauty shines within the darkest of places, while I have hardly any beauty to posses. There’s nothing good about me, compare to you.

You give the word perfection a completely different meaning, and since I am so far behind you, i'm afraid you won't even consider me being your friend...

but oh, can't you see how beautiful it could be? You and me? We’re so much alike, but on such different levels. We would get along so well, as we already do. I know I wasn't blessed with nearly half of the talents that you possess, but with God’s help I will continue to develop. I know I wasn't blessed with any beauty, inner or outer, and I certainly wasn't blessed with a perfect mind and body. But I was blessed with a heart that has the capacity to love you.

so maybe by some, small, amazing, beautiful miracle...
you'll feel the same, some day. 

I know you could careless, but I love you. 
I love you more than you will ever know.


imissyou.

where are you?
what are you doing?
are you ok?
have you been sick?
i miss you.
i havent talk to you for a week.
you're all i think about.
arrgghhh.
I MISS YOU. BADLY.


ilove you.

I dont want to feel better, i just want to feel a little less worse.
i dont want to admit it but i feel so miserable now.
and i feel really bad about having no home to go to.


i dont know now what im most scared of.
everyting doesnt feel right, making me want to be locked away from everything.

I'm not trying to succeed, I'm just struggling to survive.

I don't want to feel complete, I just want to be a little less empty.

I’m sorry if I have to bore you with my nonsense questions. Sorry if you have to put up with our ridiculous conversation. You’re the only one I know I can talk to with anything. Or maybe you’re the only one I’m interested talking to. Sorry. I just feel so alone lately. So I have to talk to you today because after this I know I’ll be feeling better.