i dont usually cry over spilled milk but im doing it right now.
what i hate about regretting is it sucks the life out of me.
people usually think I'm impulsive and imprudent, but I don't see myself as such.
i only do things because i want to save myself from feeling sorry
for the things i wanna do but haven't done it.
not that im always reckless when it comes in decision making,
ofcourse i think first before i take action,
I was thought, christians were thought to be always mindful of the consequences.
i know i've done a lot of awful things before, but atleast i learned from that wrong decisions,
unlike when i hold back, there's no lesson to learn, only sad thoughts, ifs and buts.
Sadly, this part of my life, i was affected, i was influenced by people around me.
i didnt do a certain thing because i had to consider other things.
and frankly, it made me regret so much because it is given that we cannot take back slipped oppotunities.
ah, regret! it makes me cry at night.
makes me cataleptic at day
makes me crazy and gives me trouble.
and i freakingly hate it!
